I’m still on the fence about continuing on with my Between Stitches posts, but for now, I’ve decided to post a bit of my inspiration this month and a peek inside the goings-on in my personal life.
If you have seen, I don’t know, any of my pictures from my house, you know I have my grandmother’s very orange, very velvety, very huge couch and it has completely altered my color life. In general, I’m a dove grey. I love light and warmth and all variety of flora and fauna, so when hubs said we needed change this spring, it got me thinking about how precisely I wanted to manipulate our space without blowing our entire savings (wink).
When we painted the walls on the main floor of the house a few years ago, we never got around to tackling upstairs. With Nate working nights and sleeping days, we decided to keep our bedroom walls very dark, and we have some nice antique wood pieces that add some color contrast. I would love to carry that color scheme into the upstairs hallway and bathroom, maybe even adding some cool patterns in the bathroom?? I mean, I don’t know how practical wallpaper is in a steamy bathroom, but I’m in the dream phase so…. As boring as it is (I’m no interior designer, folks) that’s been a big part of my head space this month. The gallery is a small snippet of the pins I’ve been saving for the past few months with this project in mind.
What else has been swirling around my skull? The little one wanting to enroll in virtual school and getting all of it sorted finally - you know, just barely within the deadline - but when it became real, like all I have to do is click confirm and she’d be enrolled, she declared, “I need social interaction!” and I collapsed. And getting her a passport. Man, that’s a big one. She wants to take a zip line trip which sounds magical, but would also really push her out of her comfort. She said 2018/19 are her years to take on new challenges. “First, I went to camp, and now this!” For a kid that has struggled so much with impulse control, behavior management, fear of the unknown or breaking her routine, these are huge leaps for her. Nate and I are also facing our fears by allowing her to make these decisions and, in the end, have breakthroughs that many adults still grapple with. She really is a fascinating young lady.
Speaking of fascinating young ladies, Alizah turned 18 this month! I grabbed a baby album for her to look through that day. I cried a little, and we hugged. She said, “We made it!” and we both knew what she meant. It was another life, a past life, a strange and foggy memory from another time that I remember like it was a dream and I’m watching it unfold on screen… and the day Alizah was born, my mother and I shared a glance — it would be 18 years before we would be out from under a man that caused so much trauma. Alizah still has nightmares nearly every night even though it’s been a few months since they’ve really been in contact. She is in a new head space, too and is trying to find the right balance of staying in touch to maintain relationships with her other siblings and protecting herself from the relentless emotional warfare. She is a brave and delicate young woman. Nate and I worry about her as much now as we ever have, but just as with Mae, we’re finding that balance of reining in and letting go. I’m definitely having a harder time with that, and it makes my stomach hurt to even think about her leaving for college.
I also have a couple of tight deadlines back to back, so I’m doing my best to bang out my work so that I can get back to my self-published sweater that is collecting dust on my dress form. The new issue of Taproot Magazine will have one of my new patterns included and I haven’t even seen the pics yet! I’m pretty pumped since it’s a special little surprise for me, too. I used Purl Soho Worsted Twist for the sample - so soft and fuzzy. I really hope you all love the big old hunk of love that this piece is!
What else… oh! If you haven’t seen on social media or via my newsletter, my book has a title! That’s a funny thing to be excited about, but it’s a big deal to have a name. If you haven’t heard, drum roll….
Elemental Knits // a perennial knitwear collection — there is a page linked on the drop-down menu under books now and I’ll be posting updates as they roll in from my editor. She sent me a sample layout page this week and I was swooooning. I’m so excited. These last few months are going to be torture! I just want to share everything! But I can’t.
Alright friends. That’s it. Be well xo